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No seriously. Why do my favorite socks have holes in them? And now my vans I bought two years ago are also tearing apart.  April was a little crazy. I was sick for most of it and this was the first month where I spent almost every weekend in bed. Almost. Meaning I did not do stand up. I finally did a mic 2 days ago after ages, and it felt so amazing. I felt like I was injected with life and all the weight just unloaded and all other amazing feelings in the world you can think of. I won best set of the hour too which was very encouraging even though it doesn't mean shit (I do hope I get a free mic and then a show).  I want to talk about something else though. Allow me to sound bitter. While I was in bed due to my cold, I inevitably got bored and did some stalking. I ended up discovering that one of the girls, actually several of the girls I went to school and college with, are married now. It's such a bizarre feeling. I haven't talked to them in years. A lot of them still li...

Sunday 6th April.  Short blog. Just made the decision to back out of the short film I have been working on for the past two months and called my friend/the producer to let her know this. She was very nice about it although I could tell she was upset. It was difficult because she is really nice. She even drove 40 minute yesterday to pick me up and take me to the academy museum for an event.  I know it's just a silly short film but all my life, all I have done is leave. I don't know what it feels like to stay. I wonder if that's how it's going to be like for the rest of my life. Ironically Paris Texas played on auto shuffle like 10 minutes after I told my friend I won't be working after this week. Synchronicities am I right? (This is a joke)  Anyway. Yesterday I went to the Academy Museum, I spent 50 minutes in bed trying to decide if I should go because every bone in my body was telling me to stay in bed and sleep. And then I missed two buses and my friend had to dri...

Going to write this down while I can still capture the excitement. I took part in and won a roast battle last Wednesday. Probably top ten moments of my life especially the part where the crowd was laughing and cheering so loud after my comeback that I couldn't say my next diss. Not exaggerating one bit when I say I have wanted to do a Roast battle ever since I was 11. God. My opponent was super nice though and we got each others letterboxd after the battle. I was so psyched for this, I was shaking before our turn and was convinced I would keel over and faint on the stage. Pretty sure I look horrendous on tape, but it went better than I expected. Not bragging but I was the only Roaster who got all the judges vote unanimously.  Okay I am done but wow. What a night. Isn't life beautiful? Well. Not entirely... not bragging, I am still poor. And I don't know what comes next.  This month was relatively hectic, I booked 6 shows which isn't that much but it's more than I ha...

Yeah I am obsessed with Chappell Roan now and sorry I am late to the party.  The past month has been so whatever. I only did one stand up show but made up for it by going out very often - I even saw Shiori Ito and Sean Baker (both Oscar nominated directors) in person when they did Q&A's. It blew my mind. Sorry, I get very excited whenever I see celebrities because even though I live in LA, I live in the Valley where nothing happens (Except Gwen Stafani also lives here and shops at the Gelson's in Encino I found out last week which also blew my mind). I am seriously hoping to move to Los Feliz even though I absolutely can't afford anything right now. Literally typing this lying on a mattress on a floor - when I say I am living in squalor I am absolutely not exaggerating.  I am here because I just received an incredibly infuriating email from the college that I made the boneheaded decision to transfer to. In the email the international office told me it's my duty as ...

Had one of the best nights in a while last night.  I took part in a comedy contest and before the contest I was NOT excited. This is a contest where people vote for the performers and the ones with the highest votes get prizes. I hadn't invited anyone so I wasn't expecting anyone to vote for me because people usually vote for their friends or family. Or so I thought.  I remember eating animal style fries with no cheese before the show and feeling very grateful for In-n-Out. ($2.59 in this economy can you believe it?) Then I bumped into a friend right outside the comedy club unexpectedly as he was leaving the place. It was so exciting because we'd just seen each other the day before at an open mic. When I told him I was dreading the show, he told me he knew someone who won even though they didn't invite anyone, but I brushed it off and went into the club not expecting anything. Like an hour in I kind of stopped caring about the contest because I was starting to have such...

Can't think of a creative way to start this post.   Last Friday (12/27) I did my first stand up show at the Fl*ppers club in Burb*nk. It was loads of fun - even though everyone who works there always looks like they don't want to be there lol - mainly because the other performers were so nice! We all hung out in the green room before the show and I already knew most of the performers so we were at ease. After we were done with our sets, we sat with each other amongst the audience and watched the rest of us get up there - lots of hooting and cheering.   Now on to the bad news, I am back in Northridge. I made a blog post back in September talking about how I was so happy about moving out of Northridge, which. Funny how things work out. I moved 4 times this year, I am T-I-R-E-D. I really wish I lived in Westwood or Los Feliz, it's so accessible to every other place in the city. I now spend atleast 4 hours commuting a day. I would be very happy if I never had to see the Val...